I've battled a lot of disappointments, heartache, stress, addiction, etc over my 33 yrs on this earth. The one thing I always come back to is I SURVIVED! I'm not saying there wasn't days I wanted to just crawl into bed and forget the world. I'm also not saying that in one point in my life I considered just ending it all. Because both those statements would be lies.
That being said ... I SURVIVED! I know it was for a reason, am I always sure what that reason is? No. There are days when I see those around me hurting, see their pain, see their grief, see their heartache, see their stress, and see their fight deminish. Depression is a nasty disease, it can flip you 100 ways in the blink of an eye. The truth is it sucks, but when you find that silver lining, dig real deep and find that strength it can totally turn your life around.
The biggest thing is realizing that when you are doing things to hurt yourself you are hurting those around you. There are always other options. Talk to someone, look at the situation from a different angle. When you think you have tried everything, take a step back and try something else from a completely different angle. It's not easy I battle this same thing on a daily basis.
I'm not perfect, I have days where I just can't even think about doing things that I know need to be done. Seeing as I'm human I think that's allowed. Everyone is allowed to have moments of weakness, moments of sadness and heartbreak. The main thing is what we do with it, where we go from there. You can learn from your pain and turn it around into something beautiful and help those around you that are suffering, or you can lie down and wallow.
Negativity will only breed more negativity. Positive attitudes will breed positives in your life. When you think that you just can't go on, get up, look yourself in the mirror and remind yourself you are here for a reason. You may not know that reason, but you are and one day you will sit back and go "oh THAT'S why I'm here!"
Don't give up, dig deep, or lean on someone who can be strong for you. We all have the ability to do anything and be anything we want. Set little goals each day, as you complete each one you will feel stronger and stronger. There's always someone out there that loves you. You may not have even met them yet. Life is all about choices, make yours, and live your life.
